Monday, January 26, 2009

Still Not a Clue!

Noting new to report. I am still unsettled and uncentered. I am doing nothing to move forward. I can't seem to get out of my own vicious circle. More when I get it together!!!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

A Year From Now

I did not made a New Year's resolution because they never stick for me. Birthday to birthday goals seem more interesting. My question is what kind of person do I want to be a year from now? Do I want to be a fit person? Do I want to be an organized person? This seemingly never ending sugar binge has me questioning my resolve. Should I totally eliminate sugar, and have monthly treats, yearly treats or no treats at all? Should I just go back on Weight Watchers and eliminate sugar as much as possible, eating only quality foods? I really am stuck. When I am so restricted, I totally flip out and start a rebellion. The problem is that I can't handle sugar, just like any addict. What to do...Yesterday was my birthday and my next year's gift to myself will be a healthier me who is fit for life. The blog says it is a journey. I wonder what is next on the path?! What do you think?

Thursday, January 8, 2009

I'm Free...Free Fallin!

Still nothing good to report. Still eating sugar and still eating way too much of it. It is like I will never eat sugar again. I think that by the time I went off of my no sugar way of life, I was eating so much fruit and agave that it just did not matter. Going back to no sugar with the bars and agave syrup ice cream is not the answer. The calories are basically the same and it is just natural sugar. I need a detox plan. I have downloaded my ebooks and made a handbook for myself and am getting back to basics. I have a birthday on Sunday and a long girl's weekend over MLK weekend. I don't want to set myself up for failure until all of that is over. I know what you are thinking...make that your birthday gift to yourself! Be sugar free. I thought of that. I just don't think I am there. I have a lot to sort out. My body certainly feels much stiffer than usual. I am just a mess. I will figure it out, though. Thanks for all of your wise words. I am listening to everything you write!

Friday, January 2, 2009


I am still flittering around, eating sugar and finding excuses to not get a plan. Tonight, I at a pint of ice cream but that was not enough sugar for me. I had no other sugar in the house, so I got creative! I remembered that a friend had given my daughter a pumpkin filled with Halloween candy and it was rattling around in the back of my car in a tote bag. I got up from my cozy home and went to the garage to find this pumpkin, not even knowing what I would find. I brought it in and cracked it open. I don't really even like these candies, other than the chocolate. I ate several Starbursts and went nuts from there. If I ever start to wonder if I have a sugar addiction problem, I hope one of you will remind me about this ridiculous post.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

If You Fail to Plan, Ya Plan to Fail!

I thought I was over the sugar, but apparently not! It is all about organization. I do not have adequate alternative food in the house, I still have stuff to organize to clear my brain, and I still am on my forbidden tour of foods! I am not there yet. Will be. For sure.

Happy New Year!