Friday, August 15, 2008

Focus


I am glued to the Olympics and am fanatical about gymnastics. I watch the gymnasts and you can just see their focus or lack there of, the moment they begin their routine. Over the last three weeks, I have had Olympian focus. Not a granule of sugar has passes over my lips, yet today, I had the equivalent of a shaky balance beam routine. I was not really planned, I did not eat enough early on and I was starting to bargain. I thought, "maybe I will have a sugar free decaf mocha." Well, number one, I am off of mochas, sugar free or not. I would have screwed up my streak. Number two, I don't want to eat alternative sugars because they are just not healthy. I spent about two hours being flustered and trying not to get down because I can't eat like everyone else. Well, I guess I can eat like everyone else. I just abuse sugar and weigh 299. It is interesting that today I was faltering because yesterday, I was starting to dream about my future because I was feeling so confident that I could actually do this. Well, I did not blow it, did not get the mocha and I am going to "stick this landing."


4 comments:

spunkysuzi said...

Good for your!! I'm so impressed with how far you've come with no sugar. You definitely give me hope ;)

Lynn Haraldson-Bering said...

Joy, you CAN do this. Man, you've got the willpower of a thousand dieter wannabes. Hang tough, babe. You've encouraged me so much in the last few months, remember to do the same for yourself. {{{joy}}}

debby said...

That faltering, then confidence, I think that is common to all of us. But when I have a 'falter' day like that, that is when I start feeling like it will all disappear. But just to give you hope. even though I still have those days once in a while, I am much more confident that I can maintain this loss and that it will not all disappear.

FatGirl said...

Good for you! Sugar is your FRENEMY...it may make you feel good for a little while but it'll stab you in the back when you're not looking.